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If I Fall in Love With You
Jessica Semaan
If I fall in love with you
I will idealize you
But this time I will be aware and journal about it
I will write you poems and letters
But this time I will be sure to let you know, you are not the first to inspire
I will want to spend every waking and sleeping minute with you
But this time, I will sit alone with the craving as I breathe
I will want to share with you all my dreams, fears, hopes and wounds
But this time, I will share most of it with my therapist instead
I will want to tell the world about you, make you my +1s to weddings
But this time, I will tell a few until the intensity passes
I will compare you to my ex lovers
But this time, I will stop myself because you are not them
I will project on you what my parents did not give me
But this time, I will talk to you about it when I do
I will take forever to be intimate with you, because it scares me
But this time, I will overcome this fear and allow our intimacy to be
I will show you the bright side of me, and bury my shame
But this time, I will bring in the shadow in the room too
I will run away from you when hurt, and confuse you
But this time, I will sit there and ask for what I need
I will promise not to repeat the above mistakes I have done
But this time, I will make them mistakes and forgive myself
If you fall in love with me
What would you do?
Jessica Semaan is a Lebanese poet who writes about, “love, life and what we are scared to talk about. Always from the heart.”
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